Hey Guys ,
I'm back from a long time since updating my blog, these past few months have been a rollercoaster of excitement and agony for me, and I hope it was for u too. As how will we make memories then??
So.. The day after tomorrow is the end of the June Holidays, and frankly, I'm not ready to face the new semester. Most probably I have not done much of the assigned homework our teachers have given us. So why am I blogging about this now?? Well I am gonna work through the next 48 hours to complete my excess homework, and it will only be possible if there are no distractions, such as my dad taking the com away as I was doing my math homework online, or getting a call from my friend to ask if he/she could copy answers. Hahaha no offence to all my friends out there.
Left with half of Biology, Half of Chemistry, POA paper 2, Chinese Comprehension, Geography (Lost Paper) , English Online Composition, Math Online E-Learning and Chinese Online Mapmaking.
Well I'm F*****.
The only homework I've done are Geography Checkpoint , POA paper 1 and Social Studies!
So yea I'm F*****. Hands Up with u didn't do your homework as well! :D
So ... let's talk about my personal life :D
Born in 1998, I have a wonderful family. Gain experiences growing up, and always getting into trouble with my friends and teachers.
My hobbies have a range of activities from sports, to hands on D.I.Y.
So I always have the interest to learn something new, so I wouldn't mind if one of you guys would teach me a couple of things :D Except a handy... Eww Gross
Going more in-depth to my love life, is where things start to get messy.
So far in life, I say that I have 4 girlfriends in my life, and they were all Fvcked up relations.
First was in Pri 2, yea I know, We didn't know what we were doing, So we broke up over some trival matter. (Her eating my Honey Stars >< ) However in Pri 4, we got back together, and then we broke again, as her heart doesn't seemed right. I respected her decision and we went our separate ways
Secondary school so far has been a rollercoaster. In Sec 1, I met a girl and I instantly fell for her. However, at one point of time, my immaturity put me into a wrong position, so both of us were awkward from there on. (No when I meant wrong position, I meant I was too fast and I didn't get to know her better before I popped the question. )
She accepted at first, but things were as still as awkward as before, so we decided to just remain friends. Up till the point I really really liked her, and asked her back. It didn't work out, so it was awkward between the 2 of us...
Secondary 2, I was moving on, but I still haven't gotten over her yet, and during a class break me and my friends were playing a card game, when one of my friends from another class told me my good friend (A girl ) , was in trouble. So being the naïve guy I am, I took the bait and followed him outside his class, where he and another girl told me what the 'real problem' was, asking her out , as she liked me a lot. However, She was one of my best friends so thinking of her as my girlfriend was gonna be awkward, I tried to reject, but the others made sure I asked her to become my GF before they left.. 3 Weeks later, I broke up with her, as I knew I couldn't carry on a relationship where my heart wasn't feeling right, just as I was in Pri 4. I lost a good friend then.
A friend I met online a few years back then told me that she likes me as well, But I was still recovering from the last experience, also from my heartbreak in Sec 1, But somehow I still got into a R/s with her. We have only met once then, so I wondered why she liked me. I liked her back as well , but I was too young to understand myself of me and R/s not working out.. Eventually we broke up over a fight, but luckily, I didn't lose her as a friend. That's what makes her special.
So entering Sec 3, I didn't go into R/s with anyone, frankly, I know that I will screw up as well. I finally got over my Sec 1 break, Sec 2 as well, But I couldn't comprehend that I lost a friend that day, all because I couldn't say 'NO' . Eventually we chatted up and now we are text buddies, but talking in person would still be awkward.
My Sec 1 crush finally accepted me as a guy who forgotten about her, and now we are just mutual friends :) Which I am glad to have that friend back into my life, and things wont get awkward. Chatting through friend meet ups is the only way for now, but eventually we will be normal again :)
Moral of the story?? Learn how to say NO at times, do not agree to a R/s until u love the girl and is ready for one, and time heals all wounds, including a broken heart, Trust me :)
Now Back to the future,
What would I like to be when I grow up? That's a common question everyone ask one another.
Honestly, I don't know what I want to be when I grow up . I don't have any special talent, Drive or ambition, so I could not choose the subjects that correspond to what I want to be when I grow up. I'm not a very good student, 2 F's , more C's than B's with Occasional A's .
So I couldn't really go anywhere. Life is getting more demanding as we speak, so we need to plan when we are as young as 6 years old, what do you wanna be when you grow up.
It pressurises kids in the growing years as we do not know what to choose then, not to mention in Sec 3 already asking you which Poly, JC or ITE we want to go to, and choose a goal from there. Me as the delusional kid I am, cannot even decide then, so what am I supposed to do?
My current goal now is to go into hotel management, But it weighs a huge percentage in maths, And my maths is
in the F range zone, so basically, I'm Fvcked again..
For now, to all my younger readers, just keep striving to learn everything and find your passion, then make it your profession. That is when you will truly be happy.
For me in school, I already missed my friends since the first day, and that includes my group of juniors who have their 'click' of their own. So far in life, they seem to be the one who gives me energy when I'm feeling down or bored. I'm also getting to know new juniors! Although they seem to be weird at first, ( No offence :D) , they really are caring and friendly. So thank you :D
To all my Seniors, You guys have been like family to me, teaching and guiding us your juniors along the way. I am thankful for your guidance, but now you guys need to study for O's. They are challenging, so don't back down without a fight! Study hard and aim well! Good Luck for O's!
I actually have much more to say, but I'm ending it off here. Hopefully people can
take my advice and lead their lives better. If you have any questions, just leave it as a comment, and I'll reply ASAP . This is Ray, Signing off~
Signing Off~
Raylamence
