Hey guys, Raylamence here.
So uh.. the past few days have still been a rollercoaster....
How should I begin? Well lets start off with my friend, Gary Tran.
He is my school's idol. He looks like the K-pop star Siwon, So he is famous everywhere he goes.
He recently managed to enter round 2 of the audition of 'The Lion Men' Movie, and he is the youngest and most famous of the other 4 guys that managed to get onto the front line of the newspaper. He is an awesome dude, and I wish him all the best!
The next one is the most recent outing, today, of my buddies.
We finally had an outing of just the four of us, and it was great and all. The movie was hilarious, The food was great, The fun was awesome. Up to the point where we needed someone to help us take a polaroid picture, and I had to approach a group of girls around our age for assistance. The photo they took wasn't that great, actually it kinda fucked up. But I wanted to say thank you and help them take a polaroid photo of them together, but hesitated. It was a pity cause she was also kinda cute ha-ha, never mind bout that now. I just regret as I couldn't say thank you properly, so that left me with a sense of guilt inside.
Moral of the story?? Don't overthink and do it!
The next post is about a friend of mine, and u may be reading this right now.
She has her own blog, but she changed her address or maybe started a new blog. Idk anymore.
The reason why she changed was so she wont be a part of my life anymore? Or maybe the other way around. But, I just wish I could turn back time and start afresh. You were one of my closest friends, and up till the point where I screwed up our friendship? That sucked a lot. I really miss u back, but people say I have changed into a different person, well actually maybe I did. Maybe the old me was my happy-go-lucky personality where we could do anything weird and it would still be awesome together. But recently, I realised myself that people and actually me hated that part of me...
My personality was built on USA sitcoms, such as 'The suite life on deck' , 'Hannah Montana'
Somehow through watching those shows every single day, I adapted to their talking and apparently their acting. I became High-strung whenever someone scared me, and I became weak. I tried to start afresh in Secondary school, But already on the first day, I screwed up my chance of a infamous act that I did on the first day, so my solitary side of me had to hibernate inside for some time. 2 years past, but my bros still remember and tease me of what I did on that day, so I just wanted to be someone I really wanted to be, or be someone people could be proud of and rely on. Who knew it wouldn't work out. I actually didn't change, or maybe I did towards u. Oh wait I do. Our daily conversations were very awkward and unsuccessful, unlike to all my other girl friends I talk to.
You were special, But I couldn't bring myself up to communicate and understand you better. I was selfish and I'm sorry. I hope we could start off afresh when we meet this Thursday for h3roes prize giving.
School sucks these few days from all the events pilling up, and I wish there was a way to lessen the load. In school everyone have a subject that the hate or cannot cope with. Mine is Math and Chinese. I just cannot get understand and forget what I was taught in class, and Chinese I was naturally bad as I was born in an all English speaking family. I just wish I could understand and speak Chinese , so I can communicate with people, but I cant. That is my only wish, but wishes don't come true, we need to make it happen ourselves.
Well I have more stories, but I'll leave them to another day.
This is Raylamence, signing off.
Signing off~
Raylamence
