2014

A couple more minutes till the end of 2013 and the beginning of 2014. It seems everyone is having fun outside waiting for the countdown party to begin whist I stay indoors ahah. Makes my life look pathetic doesn't it?

Its gonna be my O' levels next year, and honestly,  I'm scared of the outcome.  I have yet to decide on my ambition in life. Thats what scares me. How far can I go in this cruel world? That intrigues me.

The weather has recently been harsh on us today isn't it? Doesn't it make you want to cuddle up with ur loved one and wait for the welcoming committee for 2014? Ahah see that you do. It's not like I'm able to go anywhere.  Haiz... It's about time I get over that incident and change my personality to the person that I think be best for everyone. Secluded away from the world, speak only when spoken to. After all, these is all because I was weak and people treated me as a pushover. Not anymore. Just to give a  word of advice. Dont fall too deep in love ahahah. Okay by 2014 , my change will start. No more weakling , no more pushover.  This year is the year that I will make myself best for me and everyone.

Its about 4 hours to go, I'll think I'll stop here. Have a happy new year everyone.  :)

Questions in my life

Ive been away for so long since I last updated, and I guess it will be that way till I can be free to blog more often in the future. But it has been kinda rough on me the past months and Im seeking for answers.

Where will I go after Secondary 4? Should I aimlessly go to a Poly and drift from there? Or should I aim for a dream? But even so, what dream? What is my ambition?  What is my passion? What do I want to be? That is something I ask myself daily after having a talk to my friends of their future lives.

One migrates to Paris to study fashion in University at 16 , and becomes CEO at age 20 , while another aiming to be environmental lawyer. Me? I dont know. I want to find my passion,  but I dont know if I have one. That is one question I seek. What is my passion and what do I do after O's?

A second question in my mind. Why do I still feel empty in my heart, even after we have not been talking and meeting up already at all. Why is it possible that I always shed tears of sorrow after reading her messages and blog posts towards me? Why do I think of her in my dreams every now and then...But most importantly,  why cant I let her go now? Perhaps I have not gotten over her. Perhaps I need her to fall in love with someone else to let me be free. Then that invisible chain that holds me back will disappear and then we will both be happy. She with her new man that loves her till death shall part them , and I will be able to live life without regrets and worry.

This assumption may be true. So if u are reading this, dear SK, find love with another man. The man that will make u happy. Only then we will both be happy and free. The promise to bring u stargazing, can only be fulfilled in other parts of the world. Singapore has no place for stargazing. So drop the idea if ur thinking of stargazing in Sg. Sorry for the disappointment.

I still have to meet up with others back in the kampong. I wonder when we will all see each other again, and I hope it will be soon .
I miss everyone alot . Perhaps one of them, V or J, can help me get over her, I hope.

My blog still sucks, I know. It may not be completed be end of December. So yeah sorry. I know it is tough to read the posts for people who are on mobile. Just switch it to the web version. Merry Christmas everyone :)

Back with stories

Hey guys , im finally back after being Afk for a couple of months but things are not turning out so good. Its 6.30 in the morning now, cause just like most other Sec 3 all ovet SG, we have an extended curriculum till 8 november. It benefits us, if we even bother to listen in the first place haha!

Back being single and single for good this time. After being in this one, I finally understand the hardship and pain u guys have been putting in to your own relationships. But sincr I failed miserably,  I know u guys can do it :D

Being promoted to Sec 4 next year, but not alll are coming along with me. Guys what will u do if all of your friends are promoting except for 1 friend..who 1 of ur best friendss in the whole world? Yep. My pal anish didnt make it. Its a sad day to know that we all will not be graduating together ... but what can we do right? Its MOE's & the principal's decision to allow who goes where. We can now only give him memories before he turns us away as well. 

My blogger friend ,  who I met in H3ROES camp,  I told u people will be able to see the scars even if u try to hide them, but im glad ur becoming for the better. Its been so long since the last time we met, so I hope to see u soon , before kampung wont be kampung anymore. Oh for info back there, they changed alot since I was last there.  Even yin xiao is in USA studying now. Hope to see u soon ;) 

My blog will be updated soon with tge features and all, it should be completed by end of the month hahah! Stay tuned, and be safe :) 

Signing off~

Raylamence 

Quick Update

Hey guys, Raylamence back here. 
So uh......Its been quite some time since I updated. Yea I;m really sorry guys, but school has been really tough these few weeks, and will be until the end of my exams. After I saw the topics tested for each subject, I literally flipped the table. There were about 10 parts to study for each of the 9 subjects I'm taking. I'm gonna die haha. 

I hope you guys like the new form of UAOF! Had my good friend Joey to help me out a bit, but I'll be updating the thing quite some more before settling for a permanent one :) Her link is somewhere in my Friend Tags so check her out :)

Just a quick update to let you guys know where I am, having studies and classes around, with planning outings getting me distracted from studying, so yea not updating that often much. I am thinking of adding pokemon memes at random times for I LOVE POKEMON, but I would still need to learn quite a bit from Joey before I can have the skillz to do so :) So bear with me fellow pokemon fans :) I officially sound like the most gay homosexual who cannot shuddap about pokemon haha.

Couple with weeks left before exams, and I am really nervous for EOY, but a couple of tips left me feeling calm. Just press the flesh between the thumb and index finger of your hand, and continue to press till u feel pain for about 10 to 15 minutes, your headache should feel better by then :) I may not be a real doctor, but little tricks like these are what makes me interested and want to find out more, so if u guys do have more little pick-me-ups leave me a comment below :)

I'm starting the blog differently as I know people really would not read blogs up to this far, so stay tuned for surprises along the way of me bringing you the best photos anyone cant find anywhere on a regular basis :)

It's 2:30 in the morning right now and I am drained, so I'm gonna hit the sack. To my friend Valerie, it's great to hear you having a crush again, and I'm really happy for you :) I also don't not often reply to my messages , I just think I sent them and in the end I didn't. Sue me. Haha!

Hitting the hay now, nights guys!
Ray signing off~

Worst times and Help

Hey guys Raylamence back here.

I know I have not been updating in a while, as school and my personal life has been really messed up these few days, so I thought I should share them with you guys.

So me and my best friends broke up our 3 year friendship over an argument they still don't understand. They think I'm angry at them for them kicking me out of WGT, but honestly I don't give a shit about it. I'm angry at them because they kept me in the dark of me not able to sing and rap for 3 years since the day we met. Thanks to WGT, they have finally opened my eyes and shown me what lies they have been feeding me all these years. If only they told me those 5 words 3 years ago, and actually understand why I'm pissed off at them, we wouldn't be in the situation today where we are cursing words and insulting each other everytime we see each other. If I couldn't even trust them to tell me the truth about something so simple about this, then how am I supposed to trust them in the future with my life?? Before our conflict, I actually trusted them with my life and everything , but yet they lied to me about this. They tell stories to me that happen to contradict each other most of the time, so I really don't know who to trust anymore. Now I can barely trust anyone because of the incident. What should I do?

So to all my readers who are experts in crushes, I would like your opinion on something. Let's say you have a girlfriend but the girl who have a on you doesn't give up and continues to mention your name in front of her friends, making them about to erupt with rage? This makes it harder and worse to hang out with them (My group of juniors) . When I do hang out with them and talk to her, she will blab all day about me to them on how I talked to her , when I hang out with them but I don't talk to her, she will blab on how I didn't talk to her , if I don't hang out with them , they will come find me and she will go on and on and on again. So what should I do? I don't want anyone to rage from irritation, ( And I do too rage as well) from this ridiculous back and forth.

Now that we got the depressing stuff out of the way, lets go on to interests. I honestly have an interest to learn anything, just give me the time and opportunity and I will learn it to the best of my ability. Trying out piano and dancing these few days, as well as starting to learn cooking by the December holidays. So now I would like to know what you guys are learning now, so I could be like you guys and maybe we could learn together :D

To my EHM who may be reading this now, this is the super long paragraph I mentioned when we were talking earlier. Ha-ha, so now I expect a paragraph dedicated to me as well :D I LIKE TRAINS DALALALALLALALALA~

To my blogger friend whose birthday have passed, I'm really sorry that I couldn't send a text or contact you. Don't worry I haven't forgotten u, but the incidents that occurred took my time and attention away from your special date :x Don't worry, I got something for u as well. :D I'll chat and meet up with u soon after I manage to bring the situation into control. Hope to see you soon :) I miss our retarded but meaningful chats before :x

Well, I'm hoping to hear you guys on your opinions, and I'll be back next month. Ray logging out ~

Emotions

Hey guys Raylamence back here.

And now I'm on the highway to hell. So to all my friends out there who are watching this, if u THINK u can make it, don't do it. I didn't manage to get a cab, and now in the bus to NUS which is probably gonna take an hour to reach.... Don't attend anything if something big is further later in the day :(

My r/s with my gf so far is sailing smooth, although I've made 2 girls hurt already with my attachment. And now one is crying saying that she so t give me up and all those crap. I don't want to hurt other girls at all, but how am I supposed to cheer them up? After all I am the cause for her depression zzzz

And to my special blogger friend reading this, its fine and all but Ur upset? Wow haha I'm touched, oh wait no this makes me sound like a douchebag. Let's just say when the moment comes, you'll find out :)

My team didn't make it for WGT ! Sad haha, but my bro Ismael did, and from now I'm really cheering him on. He got the balls to rap alone, and we helped each other to gain strength and confidence. I gotta go, a problem concerning the crying girl came up, bye guys! Think of the future!!!

Life

How long has it been since the last time I posted??
Hi guys, Raylamence back her for another blog with interesting stories to share!

From my previous posts, I commented that I would be single as long as I can, well I didn't make that promise, but since we just argued a couple of hours ago, it's not turning out well >< Hopefully ,y message got through... Well that sucks.... Just do not try to joke with a girl till the point you or her can hang up the phone, if not disaster is sure to follow ><

Sports take place all the time, which includes P.E. lessons, but it`s where accidents take place as well. During P.E. , I caused my friend`s arm to have a fracture while playing a game. Apparently he ran backwards into a steel badminton post and fell, causing the fracture. Now u might be thinking , `So y didn't u stop him ?? Omg u are like so bad` Well hey I tried to warn him, as I saw it coming from a mile away, but I was laughing at him running backwards so hard that I couldn't say it out in time, so don't judge me dick >< I'll be the lookout for danger guy next time geez

Auditions are also hot in my school now for ``Whitley`s got Talent``. But during the audition we stood there like dummies and sung, so no movement took place, therefore giving us a bad chance to make it to perform for teachers day. Hopefully we can get in, if we do, we will work hard non-stop practicing dance moves to keep up the expectations the teachers expect, if we make through anyway....

Well these stories show that since I am working hard to what I want to  achieve , so if I can do it, u can too! Raylamence, signing off

Injuries

Heyo, Ray back here!

Couple months back, I got an injury causing my foot to be fractured. It went untreated for a year, as my family didnt know of it till they saw me limping one day. It healed but cracked open again, causing me to go for surgery to heal it. And during the stay in the hospital, 2 of my friends visited me in hospital! 1 gave me cards and a small gift, while the girl I was closer to gave me a heart shapes container filled with Famos Amos! The experience was painful, both physically and mentally. Hurts physically as the fall and operation, but mentally as all of my events I couldnt attend :/ It hurts haha... And all because of me playing running man and jumping off a staircase....

So dont be an idiot like me and jump of a fvcking staircase and miscalculate the god damn jump zzzz

So here is my question for u!!
What injuries u have caused to urself? And if there are any, how they were caused? Im looking forward to see ur comments :)

Signing off
Raylamence~

Zombie Apocalypse

Hey guys, I know it looks weird for me updating so late into the night, but I want to share something with you peeps.
Anyone have a fear of zombies? I used to, 2-3 years ago.
But thanks to my friends Xavier and Zhen Bang, They help me overcame than fear and helped me embraced it. How u may ask? Well through a zombie game of L4D2!

We were out playing An online FPS together, when Xavier started to play L4D2, soon Zhen Bang also got into it, and eventually through persuasion, I got into the mass of utter destruction of killing zombies :D

So moving on, I fell in love with killing zombies so much then, that I actually dreamt of me and my bros shooting off a pack of undead , rather than my usual dream of either, food, girls or nothing :)

I passed on my love of killing zombies to my clique, and 2 of them are into it as well! We even have like a plan of what to do during a zombie apocalypse :D Zombies also made me tougher mentally, and slightly crazy psychologically, haha.

So here is my question for u bros and besties! What will u do during the zombie apocalypse? My clique and I thought of breaking into military warehouse and securing their weaponry and build a safe house? Till the whole infection dies down. So what's yours? I'm eager to hear bout all Ur awesome ideas! Ray signing off!

Signing off~
Raylamence

Buddies

Hey guys, Raylamence here.

So uh.. the past few days have still been a rollercoaster....

How should I begin? Well lets start off with my friend, Gary Tran.
He is my school's idol. He looks like the K-pop star Siwon, So he is famous everywhere he goes.
He recently managed to enter round 2 of the audition of 'The Lion Men' Movie, and he is the youngest and most famous of the other 4 guys that managed to get onto the front line of the newspaper. He is an awesome dude, and I wish him all the best!

The next one is the most recent outing, today, of my buddies.
We finally had an outing of just the four of us, and it was great and all. The movie was hilarious, The food was great, The fun was awesome. Up to the point where we needed someone to help us take a polaroid picture, and I had to approach a group of girls around our age for assistance. The photo they took wasn't that great, actually it kinda fucked up. But I wanted to say thank you and help them take a polaroid photo of them together, but hesitated. It was a pity cause she was also kinda cute ha-ha, never mind bout that now. I just regret as I couldn't say thank you properly, so that left me with a sense of guilt inside.
Moral of the story?? Don't overthink and do it!

The next post is about a friend of mine, and u may be reading this right now.
She has her own blog, but she changed her address or maybe started a new blog. Idk anymore.
The reason why she changed was so she wont be a part of my life anymore? Or maybe the other way around. But, I just wish I could turn back time and start afresh. You were one of my closest friends, and up till the point where I screwed up our friendship? That sucked a lot. I really miss u back, but people say I have changed into a different person, well actually maybe I did. Maybe the old me was my happy-go-lucky personality where we could do anything weird and it would still be awesome together. But recently, I realised myself that people and actually me hated that part of me...
My personality was built on USA sitcoms, such as 'The suite life on deck' , 'Hannah Montana'
Somehow through watching those shows every single day, I adapted to their talking and apparently their acting. I became High-strung whenever someone scared me, and I became weak. I tried to start afresh in Secondary school, But already on the first day, I screwed up my chance of a infamous act that I did on the first day, so my solitary side of me had to hibernate inside for some time. 2 years past, but my bros still remember and tease me of what I did on that day, so I just wanted to be someone I really wanted to be, or be someone people could be proud of and rely on. Who knew it wouldn't work out. I actually didn't change, or maybe I did towards u. Oh wait I do. Our daily conversations were very awkward and unsuccessful, unlike to all my other girl friends I talk to.
You were special, But I couldn't bring myself up to communicate and understand you better. I was selfish and I'm sorry. I hope we could start off afresh when we meet this Thursday for h3roes prize giving.

School sucks these few days from all the events pilling up, and I wish there was a way to lessen the load. In school everyone have a subject that the hate or cannot cope with. Mine is Math and Chinese. I just cannot get understand and forget what I was taught in class, and Chinese I was naturally bad as I was born in an all English speaking family. I just wish I could understand and speak Chinese , so I can communicate with people, but I cant. That is my only wish, but wishes don't come true, we need to make it happen ourselves.

Well I have more stories, but I'll leave them to another day.
This is Raylamence, signing off.

Signing off~
Raylamence

A Long time ago...

Hey Guys ,

I'm back from a long time since updating my blog, these past few months have been a rollercoaster of excitement and agony for me, and I hope it was for u too. As how will we make memories then??

So.. The day after tomorrow is the end of the June Holidays, and frankly, I'm not ready to face the new semester. Most probably I have not done much of the assigned homework our teachers have given us.  So why am I blogging about this now?? Well I am gonna work through the next 48 hours to complete my excess homework, and it will only be possible if there are no distractions, such as my dad taking the com away as I was doing my math homework online, or getting a call from my friend to ask if he/she could copy answers. Hahaha no offence to all my friends out there.

Left with half of Biology, Half of Chemistry, POA paper 2, Chinese Comprehension, Geography (Lost Paper) , English Online Composition, Math Online E-Learning and Chinese Online Mapmaking.

Well I'm F*****.
The only homework I've done are Geography Checkpoint , POA paper 1 and Social Studies!

So yea I'm F*****. Hands Up with u didn't do your homework as well! :D


So ... let's talk about my personal life :D


Born in 1998, I have a wonderful family. Gain experiences growing up, and always getting into trouble with my friends and teachers.

My hobbies have a range of activities from sports, to hands on D.I.Y.

So I always have the interest to learn something new, so I wouldn't mind if one of you guys would teach me a couple of things :D Except a handy... Eww Gross
Going more in-depth to my love life, is where things start to get messy.

So far in life, I say that I have 4 girlfriends in my life, and they were all Fvcked up relations.
First was in Pri 2, yea I know, We didn't know what we were doing, So we broke up over some trival matter. (Her eating my Honey Stars >< )  However in Pri 4, we got back together, and then we broke again, as her heart doesn't seemed right. I respected her decision and we went our separate ways

Secondary school so far has been a rollercoaster. In Sec 1,  I met a girl and I instantly fell for her. However, at one point of time, my immaturity put me into a wrong position, so both of us were awkward from there on. (No when I meant wrong position, I meant I was too fast and I didn't get to know her better before I popped the question. )
She accepted at first, but things were as still as awkward as before, so we decided to just remain friends. Up till the point I really really liked her, and asked her back. It didn't work out, so it was awkward between the 2 of us...

Secondary 2, I was moving on, but I still haven't gotten over her yet, and during a class break me and my friends were playing a card game, when one of my friends from another class told me my good friend (A girl ) , was in trouble. So being the naïve guy I am, I took the bait and followed him outside his class, where he and another girl told me what the 'real problem' was, asking her out , as she liked me a lot. However, She was one of my best friends so thinking of her as my girlfriend was gonna be awkward, I tried to reject, but the others made sure I asked her to become my GF before they left.. 3 Weeks later, I broke up with her, as I knew I couldn't carry on a relationship where my heart wasn't feeling right, just as I was in Pri 4. I lost a good friend then.

A friend I met online a few years back then told me that she likes me as well, But I was still recovering from the last experience, also from my heartbreak in Sec 1, But somehow I still got into a R/s with her. We have only met once then, so I wondered why she liked me. I liked her back as well , but I was too young to understand myself of me and R/s not working out.. Eventually we broke up over a fight, but luckily, I didn't lose her as a friend. That's what makes her special.

So entering Sec 3, I didn't go into R/s with anyone, frankly, I know that I will screw up as well. I finally got over my Sec 1 break, Sec 2 as well, But I couldn't comprehend that I lost a friend that day, all because I couldn't say 'NO' . Eventually we chatted up and now we are text buddies, but talking in person would still be awkward.
My Sec 1 crush finally accepted me as a guy who forgotten about her, and now we are just mutual friends :) Which I am glad to have that friend back into my life, and things wont get awkward. Chatting through friend meet ups is the only way for now, but eventually we will be normal again :)
Moral of the story?? Learn how to say NO at times, do not agree to a R/s until u love the girl and is ready for one, and time heals all wounds, including a broken heart, Trust me :)


Now Back to the future,
What would I like to be when I grow up? That's a common question everyone ask one another.
Honestly, I don't know what I want to be when I grow up . I don't have any special talent, Drive or ambition, so I could not choose the subjects that correspond to what I want to be when I grow up. I'm not a very good student, 2 F's , more C's than B's with Occasional A's .
So I couldn't really go anywhere. Life is getting more demanding as we speak, so we need to plan when we are as young as 6 years old, what do you wanna be when you grow up.

It pressurises kids in the growing years as we do not know what to choose then, not to mention in Sec 3 already asking you which Poly, JC or ITE we want to go to, and choose a goal from there. Me as the delusional kid I am, cannot even decide then, so what am I supposed to do?
My current goal now is to go into hotel management, But it weighs a huge percentage in maths, And my maths is
 in the F range zone, so basically, I'm Fvcked again..

For now, to all my younger readers, just keep striving to learn everything and find your passion, then make it your profession. That is when you will truly be happy.


For me in school, I already missed my friends since the first day, and that includes my group of juniors who have their 'click' of their own. So far in life, they seem to be the one who gives me energy when I'm feeling down or bored. I'm also getting to know new juniors! Although they seem to be weird at first, ( No offence :D) , they really are caring and friendly.  So thank you :D

To all my Seniors, You guys have been like family to me, teaching and guiding us your juniors along the way. I am thankful for your guidance, but now you guys need to study for O's. They are challenging, so don't back down without a fight! Study hard and aim well! Good Luck for O's!

I actually have much more to say, but I'm ending it off here. Hopefully people can
take my advice and lead their lives better.  If you have any questions, just leave it as a comment, and I'll reply ASAP . This is Ray, Signing off~

Signing Off~
Raylamence

Mistakes & School

Sorry for the Mix Up!

Hey Guys, Sorry if u went to Kampung the other day and found out that it was closed, turned out I mixed up the locations, it was held at Woodlands Civic Center, so I'm truly apologetic if I caused you and your family to go and found out that the place is closed. ><

So How was the first day of school? Hope you guys had fun, or like me, had homework on the first day, and CCA Orientation is 2 days away and your teacher expects you to finish it within that time slot! Now that school has began and the new year has begun, have u started on your revolution u made in 2012?
Mine was focusing in class and getting my grades up, but after revising what I learnt last year, I found out I have missed out on a lot of important stuff! So this year is going to be challenging for me, also to all my Sec 4 seniors who are taking their O-Levels this year, I wish you the Best Of Luck!

So since I have shared my first day of school experience with you guys, I want you guys to do the same, leave a comment of how awesome or crappy your first day of school is this year.

Also I have another bad news, I would only be able to update this blog when I have the chance to use the computer at home for work, other than that, This blog is gonna be quiet for a while, or unless you guys spam it! MUWAHAHAHA!~

So this Is Raylamence, rushing off to continue the preparations of the CCA Orientation on Friday, I'll see you guys later~

Signing Off~,
Raylamence