Went vegetarian for 4 days, until my junior fed me Shrimp crackers which broke my streak. Thanks a lot again by the way *rolls eyes* Although I enjoyed my experience of being a vegetarian, it took a toll on my body as isn't used to that diet. Well its in the past now, so lets move on.
Homework troubles are starting to pill up in front of me, and I just want this to end. Its already hard enough to revise the topics I am currently weakest in, yet all the homework start to pile up, the ones that I'm also weak in such as Principle Of Accounts. Managing all of them is hard enough already, and now other factors are getting in my ways of studying. That would be ambitions and friendship, as what I've mentioned earlier.
Friends that I thought I have lost just came back out of the blue, and started things off as if nothing has happened between us yet. That although I'm grateful , still hurts as they disappeared without any warning and left their friends all alone , as if they have been abandoned. Yeah that feeling, that feeling if being abandoned. Well even though its a thing of the past now, It still hurts to talk to them without tearing up a little, from both happiness and frustration. Friends that were once so close now drifted due to the upcoming examinations and trust related issues. Then there will be girls. Girls that get in between the friendship, then the guys start to fight over her, then the bond weakens. This also applies if only one guy likes the girl but his best buddy (Even if he has no feelings for the girl) spends more time with her than his 'bro' that likes her. While on that topic, friends get dumped by their partners , friends get together to BGR , friends who couldn't care less about the world and just goes solo. Eye-candies pop up every now and then, but in reality, they are just there as a moral boost to let one know that they have something worth fighting for. Then Exs' come back, and we become friends with them again...some of us do anyways. Just don't know how to continue the conversation sometimes but yeah, i do miss the friendship. Don't take it the wrong way though. As I said in Para 1, I'm still afraid. We all have that one time when we all just dumb and make wrong decisions. We all just need to learn how to adapt and learn from it, not complain . It wont solve anything . This applies to everything in life, including breakups.
Getting more moody these past few weeks, probably due to fatigue and stress about everything in life. Can't even keep the people I care for close to me. When I do, i just screw up and make things worse. Then I met Lily Jie (Big Sis). Shes a woman I met recently in Kampung, the place i volunteer at every once in a while, and I heard that she was able to help out with problems. So I approached her for help. After giving her my birthdate and mixing up the numbers, she was able to tell my personality and traits instantaneously. Not really recalling everything she told me, I know she told me that my personality was actually quite good, balanced in alot of aspects such as leadership and planning and all. Then she told me my flaws. The longer she goes on, the more rational it gets, and it did. I remember all the flaws that Lily has pointed out to me.I don't prefer to communicate, and also I don't like to communicate to others. I always like to confined into my own comfort zone , unwilling to try out new things. I'm not adventurous. It dawned on me that it was true, as i didn't like to mix around with new people when they came down for the last bash Balik Kampung. From there I realised it was true, due to me unable to communicate to some of them as us having language barriers, and I didn't felt worthy, as I don't go back often to help out. Thus, unable to open up my heart to newcomers and communicating with them. Then there is the part where a new situation pops out from nowhere, and I panic from my unpreparedness. I'm unable to adapt quickly to new situations. That's my 3 flaws with my personality, and I know that if I were to work on them to improve them, I would have the confidence to do anything.
Honestly, I opposed to some of Lily's predictions saying that I was afraid of messing up and making mistakes. What she told me actually opened my eyes, and I shared it with another close buddy of mine, he too was also enlightened. We are teens. At this phase in life, we are supposed to make mistakes. If we don't even try to make mistakes, then how can we even learn to be better in the future? This is the time to make mistakes, as when we become adults, society wants us to be perfect to look out for the little ones as it would be their turns to make mistakes. Everyone is Human. No one is perfect. Even a police officer on duty. Although he/she seems to be the model and enforcement of Law, he/she is just another regular human, bound to make mistakes as well. They aren't really different from us. Don't be intimidated by them. They are just regular people in Police attires, enforcing the rules. Deep down , a kid at heart , and will also understand the feeling of making a mistake.
During recess, I like to talk to some of my friends in class. Eventually we talked about what we would be doing after O levels. In one way or another, we came together and agreed to form YouTube channels. I'm still considering this, as I wouldn't have much stuff to put on YouTube in the first place. But in the end, we are all just doing this for the fun of it, and who knows? Maybe we can hit things off and become famous hahaha.
All I know is, that life will get worse each passing day. Its how we deal with it and how we take it to our hearts that shows our strength. It is how we react to defeat, will then show our true colours.
Homework troubles are starting to pill up in front of me, and I just want this to end. Its already hard enough to revise the topics I am currently weakest in, yet all the homework start to pile up, the ones that I'm also weak in such as Principle Of Accounts. Managing all of them is hard enough already, and now other factors are getting in my ways of studying. That would be ambitions and friendship, as what I've mentioned earlier.
Friends that I thought I have lost just came back out of the blue, and started things off as if nothing has happened between us yet. That although I'm grateful , still hurts as they disappeared without any warning and left their friends all alone , as if they have been abandoned. Yeah that feeling, that feeling if being abandoned. Well even though its a thing of the past now, It still hurts to talk to them without tearing up a little, from both happiness and frustration. Friends that were once so close now drifted due to the upcoming examinations and trust related issues. Then there will be girls. Girls that get in between the friendship, then the guys start to fight over her, then the bond weakens. This also applies if only one guy likes the girl but his best buddy (Even if he has no feelings for the girl) spends more time with her than his 'bro' that likes her. While on that topic, friends get dumped by their partners , friends get together to BGR , friends who couldn't care less about the world and just goes solo. Eye-candies pop up every now and then, but in reality, they are just there as a moral boost to let one know that they have something worth fighting for. Then Exs' come back, and we become friends with them again...some of us do anyways. Just don't know how to continue the conversation sometimes but yeah, i do miss the friendship. Don't take it the wrong way though. As I said in Para 1, I'm still afraid. We all have that one time when we all just dumb and make wrong decisions. We all just need to learn how to adapt and learn from it, not complain . It wont solve anything . This applies to everything in life, including breakups.
Getting more moody these past few weeks, probably due to fatigue and stress about everything in life. Can't even keep the people I care for close to me. When I do, i just screw up and make things worse. Then I met Lily Jie (Big Sis). Shes a woman I met recently in Kampung, the place i volunteer at every once in a while, and I heard that she was able to help out with problems. So I approached her for help. After giving her my birthdate and mixing up the numbers, she was able to tell my personality and traits instantaneously. Not really recalling everything she told me, I know she told me that my personality was actually quite good, balanced in alot of aspects such as leadership and planning and all. Then she told me my flaws. The longer she goes on, the more rational it gets, and it did. I remember all the flaws that Lily has pointed out to me.I don't prefer to communicate, and also I don't like to communicate to others. I always like to confined into my own comfort zone , unwilling to try out new things. I'm not adventurous. It dawned on me that it was true, as i didn't like to mix around with new people when they came down for the last bash Balik Kampung. From there I realised it was true, due to me unable to communicate to some of them as us having language barriers, and I didn't felt worthy, as I don't go back often to help out. Thus, unable to open up my heart to newcomers and communicating with them. Then there is the part where a new situation pops out from nowhere, and I panic from my unpreparedness. I'm unable to adapt quickly to new situations. That's my 3 flaws with my personality, and I know that if I were to work on them to improve them, I would have the confidence to do anything.
Honestly, I opposed to some of Lily's predictions saying that I was afraid of messing up and making mistakes. What she told me actually opened my eyes, and I shared it with another close buddy of mine, he too was also enlightened. We are teens. At this phase in life, we are supposed to make mistakes. If we don't even try to make mistakes, then how can we even learn to be better in the future? This is the time to make mistakes, as when we become adults, society wants us to be perfect to look out for the little ones as it would be their turns to make mistakes. Everyone is Human. No one is perfect. Even a police officer on duty. Although he/she seems to be the model and enforcement of Law, he/she is just another regular human, bound to make mistakes as well. They aren't really different from us. Don't be intimidated by them. They are just regular people in Police attires, enforcing the rules. Deep down , a kid at heart , and will also understand the feeling of making a mistake.
During recess, I like to talk to some of my friends in class. Eventually we talked about what we would be doing after O levels. In one way or another, we came together and agreed to form YouTube channels. I'm still considering this, as I wouldn't have much stuff to put on YouTube in the first place. But in the end, we are all just doing this for the fun of it, and who knows? Maybe we can hit things off and become famous hahaha.
All I know is, that life will get worse each passing day. Its how we deal with it and how we take it to our hearts that shows our strength. It is how we react to defeat, will then show our true colours.
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